Uhm.. What?

i have to undergo this. live with smoke of cigerette, a lot of fallen trees, vile dress, and too much stale of novels. yes, this is my life. sometimes i don't even think that i have to live with this things. i love it, sometimes.

my life was so abstract.

i said i love purple, but when someone aske me what's your favorite color? i reply, turquoise.

i said i love doll, but when i don't like it i conceal that

i said i love lomography, but when they have a sale on it i didn't buy any lomo camera

but one thing that can't be doubted anymore was my feeling for you.

i said i love you, and i really mean it.

day by day, i feel so scared of losing you. and i'm kinda tired of this. i always think that you're gonna do that thing again, thing that make me weaker and weaker. i always negative thinking. always thinking that you'll love someone else and leave me as long as possible. but i tried to threw away this feeling, feeling that always haunt my day. i'm un-calm with this feeling. i tried to trust you. well, now i trusted you.

i'm begging you, don't make me disappointed again. it hurts.

i have ldr again soon. and i wish, you trusted me like i trusted you so bad.

i love you, and i'm so scared of losing you.